Bon Voyage*

Im celebrating the beginning of a New Year at home, in the cave Bear and I share. We have food, drink, entertainment, new bathroom accessories :)
It's been a busy 12 months, but such is life. One thing I learn is that one cannot have control over what happens. We go through life trying to figure out how to de-stress from it, but shit, trying to be a sensible World inhabitant is a full time job ..In other words, a manual of sorts would seem like  a worthy gift:
~ Yeah Dave's Guide to Livin' the Moment: Getting to Ecstasy Through Wine, Chocolate and Your iPod Playlist might be something to check out. I haven't done it myself yet..
Spend time on yourself. On self development. On your own wellbeing.
           Cheers, I love blogging*

13 money saving tips**

1. cut back to one credit card
2. leave your credit card and atm card at home
3. let the `cheaper` person carry the money. shop from a list and stick to it
4. don't buy anything the first time you see it
5. don't go food shopping when you're hungry
6. bring lunch to work
7. don't eat out as much
8. use payroll deductions to build savings and retirement accounts
9. make it hard to get to your money- bank far away, avoid atm machines.
10. pay down credit cards as quickly as you can. pay on time. pay more than the minimum required
11. transfer your balance to a card with a lower rate
12. use the local library. borrow books, videos, and cd's
13. have potluck suppers instead of dinner parties 

nåd är det enda sättet att gå

For the last six months 

I have been meeting extraordinary women..

very grateful for that. At work, meetings, a friend of a friend, wholesome women all around me!

It's very inspiring I must say. Inspired to be a good friend and listener, I regain control over myself again. Both feet on the ground, I am ready to be of help.

Oprah would be proud ;)

I never flew a kite. I wanna do that before my time is up.

I was invited to a potluck on Friday :)

12.25.2011 merry

This disease is indeed cunning, baffling, and powerful. I thought Christmas would be a piece of cake now that I've been dealing with issues head-on. But the minute I tell myself that "I got this" that's when things start slipping away. To be knowing of my disease is to never underestimate it.  

I'm looking for an online drawing tool so I can go back to making my own pictures. 

NO New Year's resolutions yet, apart from keeping sane and sober. I always want to be comfortable in my own skin, because that feeling of inadequacy is so fucking tired. I don't ever want to go there again. I ask HIM to help me, to do what he has planned for me. 

9:26pm

Washed the day off, it's been a hell of a day. 

It seemed to have different layers and textures.

Exhausted by the variety of emotions felt today,

and with great intensity.

The Entity upstairs never ceases to amaze me. 

I can only smile.

What a lucky gal I am!

journaling i guess #1

Been trying to have these separate and elaborate posts, feeling so proud of myself. But lately my curiosity about every single thing became a big, fat pile of information, important and otherwise. So i'm going to bullet point quick reference words:

• I've developed a curiosity about the war in Vietnam after seeing "Platoon" for the first time. Charlie Sheen is so captivating in it  tee hee
• Promising myself to take more pictures of my closest surroundings, Bear, and the girls, the stable times.
• www.Glassdoor.com
• I like my surroundings, my story, my self
• Work's not stressful, it's pretty manageable
• Mad Men
• www.chicagofloatationtanks.com
• Adam and I took our couples' cooking class last weekend
• I'm trying diligently, every day to be present and patient

And yes, the reason why there is a number in the subject of that post is because my memory's really good just as much as it is short. Cin cin ! *

*  currently sipping on hot chocolate. baby it's cold outside!

a to-do list for a to-do list

CHARACTER BUILDING

demands made upon other people

for too much attention, protection, and love

can only invite domination or revulsion..

***

Today I still enjoy getting the approval of others,

but I am not willing to pay the price I used to 

pay to get it.

I will not bend myself into a pretzel to get

others to like me.

If I get your approval, that's fine,

but if I don't, I will survive without it.

I am responsible for speaking what

I perceive to be the truth, 

not what I think others may want to hear.

Similarly, my false pride always kept me 

overly concerned about my reputation.

Since being enlightened in the A.A. program,

my aim is to improve my character.

                                             ~Reflections, April 2nd

brainerd

Filled out my fafsa.

that's step one.

feel much better now that i did that.

second step will be figuring out if

Foreign Languages major is

included in tuition reimbursement program at work.

gotta contact hr.

DO BOJU !

One word helps me describe the last 2 days, as i see it.. CAMARADERIE on my mind. 

I've observed a couple o' instances where it's simply an act of reacting to each other, as members of the same species. We have something in common, no?

"we are all connected" - that cliche doesn't help me feel anything... But really feeling it? Hmm....let's be nice to each other.

I'm going to start practicing some principles in all my affairs

Just as suggested.

I got myself an organic calendula & chamomile soap bar, and it is positively delightful. Makes me feel so warm and fuzzy in the shower. I also need to get in the habit of moisturizing. I like illuminating body products, I should work on being more diligent about it. I'm inspired by fresh faces. I like brisk walks in the morning, it feels cleansing. I forgive myself. 

Vincent, my apollo.

Happy Dec 1st!

A Day off!!