BB Cream

Known as Blemish Balm Cream, it originated in Germany to treat people who have undergone laser surgery. It acts like a tinted moisturizer, giving a flawless, natural look while covering imperfections.
It's a fairly new product in the West, Asian women have been using it for a while now. Maybe that explains that uniform natural look thats soft matte yet dewy. Very desirable if I may say so myself.

To my dear friend Angella: Boscia (our one time much coveted skin care brand) has now come out with one of the first BB Creams offered by Sephora.
Apparently there's tons of different BB Creams available to buy online, so pick carefully, keeping in mind you skin condition/concern. Have fun!

its a new day

gosh i work myself up dont i?

and im feeling much bettah

and i miss my girl friends

 <3

on a friday night

im feeling reckless. i know this feeling.

god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change.

ginger ale in a martini glass.

everyone seems so far away.

I feed myself this.

Bullshit.

wednesday

A couple of weeks ago, my dear friend and I came to a conclusion that getting new jobs was my "thing". Anyone's got a thing, and every time she comes back from her travels, I tell her about a new workplace, what I do, what my coworkers are like. Right now I have to choose from two job prospects, but like Bear said, I'm in the driver's seat, so I just sit back and see what they got to offer me. This all sounds really arrogant, but I consider myself really lucky to have a dilemma of this nature, especially with today's job market. I hope to make the right decision, because this job will have to stick. I know it will. I've been looking forward to working regular hours like everyone else, and to be compensated fairly. I'm looking forward to the next couple of days when things will have to resolve themselves, but like always, I'm taking one day at a time.

Nourishment

coq au vin anyone?

One who understands the art of living will not be indulgent in eating, especially when presented with delicious dishes. When they are half-full, they will put down their forks or chopsticks.
These people will never have digestive problems. If you eat something delicious, and you want more and more, eventually you will have health problems. People with digestive problems often tend to be moody.
Because they have a lot of residue in their bodies, it is difficult for them to feel at peace. One with a good digestive system will have more stable moods. This is the real art of living.

Great Bodhi Mind

Dispel all pretenses and smile

In a composed and tranquil manner

Be respectful, wholesome, and sincere

As if the Buddha were standing before you.

Under all circumstances, we should look upon all people as if we are facing the Buddha. We should look upon all Buddhas as if we are seeing all people.

That way we will always respect and revere everyone with the purest and most wholesome mind.

The single most important aim in practicing Buddhism is to eliminate the fallacy of self. We should first understand that a "true self" does not exist; there is only a "conditioned self"- this entity that we call "self" is only a temporary conditional existence.

`at camp

Summer camp for children, ages 7 - 10.
Eating our fourth meal of the day in a community tent.

The country air purifies the blood and stimulates our appetite, we've been running around all day.

There are three different sandwiches, served by crusty ladies with mustaches.
These are:
`ham and tomato
`cheese and tomato
`strawberry jam

One cup of hot cocoa per kid, and the refills aren't available. It stimulates our sense of self-discipline but we're not aware of that yet. But that doesn't upset us, we all got our portion after all.
I make sure there's enough sips throughout the whole meal. First goes the ham sandwich, which is the most savory, next up cheese and tomato (slightly less flavorful, therefore prepares of me of what's to come).

My last piece of bread is decorated with strawberry jam, and it is glistening before my eyes. I've been looking forward to this moment. For every bite there's a sip. What a supper.     Satisfaction.

*let go*

Sit quietly for now and cease your relentless participation. Watch what happens. Life continues to go on - why are you so sure that your micromanagement of every moment in this whole world is so essential?

If I want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what, exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur?

Look for God like a man with his head on fire looks for water

Disentangle

    The Yogic path is about disentangling the built-in glitches of the human condition, which I'm going to over-simply define here as the heartbreaking inability to sustain contentment. Different schools of thought have found different explanations for a man's apparently flawed state. Taoists call it imbalance, Buddhism calls it ignorance, Islam blames our misery on rebellion against God, and the Judeo-Christian tradition attributes all of our suffering to original sin.
    The Yogis, however, say that human discontentment is a simple case of mistaken identity. We're miserable because we think we are mere individuals, alone with our flaws and fears and resentments. We wrongly believe that our limited little egos constitute our whole entire nature. We have failed to recognize our deeper divine character. We don't realize that, somewhere within us all, there does exist a supreme Self who is eternally at peace. The supreme Self is our true identity, universal and divine.
    Yoga is the effort to experience one's divinity personally and then to hold on to that experience forever. Yoga is about self- mastery and the dedicated effort to haul your attention away from your endless brooding over the past and you nonstop worrying about the future so that you can seek, instead, a place of eternal presence from which you may regard yourself and your surroundings with poise.

BBQ

      Yesterday I went to a Young People's AA bbq in Albany Park.

My first real fellowship event. Funny how planning on what time to arrive, my mind whispered:"after everyone loosens up a bit."-  Yes Mia, with root beer. Silly billy.

We played Uno for hours, identified how alcoholic of us to not want to quit the game even after it got dark and we could barely tell the colors of the cards. How very determined of us to not give something up because realistically it just doesn't work. I felt like I was back in fourth grade, where things were exciting, competitions were fun, and no life threatening behaviors encouraged. I went to sleep tired, smelling of outside frolic and bonfire. Me likey. 

Found that I didn't feel odd or lonely in a crowd. I was very much involved in what was going on around me. That's big.

I want you to get excited about who you are,

what you are, what you have, and what can still be for you.

 I want to inspire you to see that you can go

 far beyond where you are right now

- Virginia Satir

Kime Buzzelli

We can actively create the excitement and the inspiration. Passively waiting for "the good life" is past behavior. Each day, this day, we can set our sights on reaching a goal - we can take a step, or two toward that goal. Progress is there for the making - achievement is there for the taking. We are what we need to be. We have what we need to move ahead.