"The Death of Ivan Ilyich" fragment

boo boo boo

 Trying to regain my strength after a long week, animals head to their caves.



Taking care of our basic needs. Taking care of each other.
There's something very charming about hibernating.


Also wishing I was better at this whole virtual collage thing. I'm always trying to go a little forward, we'll see where it goes.


Many joys.

contemplating

I'm craving music ,it's been growing in me since i lost touch with updating my music. In any case, I need to post a video in order to have it handy if I feel like it

just

no sass today

even a pig goes through changes

As my mama pointed out, this blog is not wandering anymore. It is now a wondering pig. I wonder a lot. I daydream a lot. Somehow it takes a lot of energy (out of me at least) to be straight up realistic in this real life as we call it. I'm somehow always behind a bubble, a little slow and not so sharp. Clumsy. But I'm very much okay with that. I believe we all add something to the mix.

Quick and witty? Great! You are on a roll, like butter.

As long as you're not trying too hard, because that's just embarrasing to watch.

This is going to sound awfully personal, but I feel I'm growing up. Not in the physical sense but more like, I'm finally becoming comfortable with who I am, I accept it and do not try to be someone else, an image that would be more different and therefore more exciting.

I also realized that I've started to accept people for who they are and not who I'd like them to be, this is a big deal believe it or not, I don't think I have to explain why.

There is a way to be a part of society without it completely consuming you.

don't mess with my meerkat

Bear serves scotch

Apparently we started a series neither of us can let go of

Woman Triumphant



Helena Modjeska (1840-1909)
Polish Shakespearean Actress
American Cultural Leader
Polish Patriot



A couple of weeks ago, out of nowhere Bear recorded a documentary about Helena Modjeska (whom I've heard of before but without any serious interest).

May I just say I was overwhelmed!

Now...any Polish woman living in the U.S. can probably say the exact same thing as what I'm about to say but - so many things mentioned in the documentary hit close to home; not to ever compare myself with the ultimate wild woman - one who listens to her impulses, her heart, her passions. In a time where "a lady shouldn't move" (hysterics in the attic), she drops the safety of her home country at the height of her fame and moves to a place far west, where nothing is granted, especially for a sensible dove like Modjeska.

She had the looks and the talent of a serious actor, balls of steel, and most importantly she always challenged herself without ever sacrificing her signature grace. Definitely an inspiration for all women.

thursday evening

Going back to Tao Te Ching for helpful life information after finishing Mr Murakami's finest story yet {read by me}. Feeling like I kinda dig this role- a useful human being, a responsible being. I'm a good girl at heart.

 Gosh I haven't danced in so long!

A Piece of My Mind

Hey Men of Royal Blood!

Stop marrying "commoners"!

Look back at what happened. Your woman will be bullied by other ROYAL women both in your family and outside. Too much pressure. Golly!

olive oil

Bath: For a moisturizing soak, add about ¼ cup olive oil and several drops of essential oil to your bathwater. Lavender oil will help you relax before going to bed. (Careful - the tub will be slippery!)

Dry Skin: Gently massage a small amount of olive oil on extra dry areas such as elbows or heels.

Hands: Whip up a quick sugar scrub for rough, dry hands. Combine two tablespoons of oil with two tablespoons of sugar. Rub on hands until sugar begins to dissolve. Rinse with warm water. Voilà! Silky-smooth hands.

Feet: Apply a liberal amount of oil to feet at bedtime. Cover with cotton socks. Not sexy... but oh-so-soft feet in the morning! The magic works for hands, too. Cover with white cotton gloves (hmm, even less sexy).

Face: Create a moisturizing facial mask with olive oil, honey, and an egg yolk. Beat until well blended and apply to face... then relax! Leave on for 15 minutes; rinse with warm water.

Nails: Warm a small dish of olive oil (not too hot) with a tablespoon of lemon juice. Soak nails for 5- 10 minutes. This softens cuticles while it strengthens nails.

Hair: For a simple oil treatment, warm several tablespoons of olive oil (again, not hot). Rub into scalp and hair. Cover with a shower cap or small plastic bag. Leave on for 20-30 minutes.

Lips: Alleviate chapped lips with straight olive oil. Dab on lips... especially helpful at bedtime.

The reason  for my research on that is, of course the change of seasons, my epidermis getting a little taut. Just had some green and mint tea combination and Im feelin revitalized after a long week. Ideas start forming...

Hateful things and other things {by Sei Shonagon}

• A man who has nothing in particular to recommend discusses all sorts of subjects at random as though he knew everything.
• To envy others and to complain about one's own lot; to speak badly about people; to be inquisitive about the most trivial matters and to resent and abuse people for not telling one, oh how hateful!
• One is in the middle of a story when someone butts in and tries to show that he is the only clever person in the room. Such a person is hateful, and so indeed, is anyone who tries to push himself forward.
• When one has stopped loving somebody, one feels that he has become someone else, even though he is still the same person.
• One has a carefully scented robe and then forgotten about it for several days. When finally one comes to wear it, the aroma is even more delicious than on freshly scented clothes.
• When crossing a river in bright moonlight, I love to see the water scatter in showers of crystal under the oxen's feet.

 Bear serves tea

Wednesday

Had 2 nosebleeds today. Watched Persona. Fell in love with Liv Ulmann's bone structure. Took a shower. Applied black mask. Peeled it off. Will go outside before I have to go to work in order to purchase a postcard to write to my potential pen pal. Good Day.

brush thyself

A land with lots of herring can get along with few doctors ~ a Dutch proverb

 

Sunday Evening

Success! The bone in chicken breast was anything but dry, the parsley/bread crumbs/parmesan mixture blended well and created a little crispy coating as you can see. Cherry tomatoes tossed in my personal balsamic concoction added some zest to the meal, brown rice on the side to complete the circle. We slept well that night.

Sunday Lunch

Took a walk to our local grocer, picked up meats and cheeses and oh more meat for dinner, parmesan, parsley to stuff the baked bone - in chicken breasts tonight, along with brown rice and tomatoes tossed in olive oil. Nothing fancy, just cooking. I told myself I was gonna cook a lot more once we moved in and so I'm going to try to keep that promise to myself. It may not be advanced, but at least I'm not eating out, I'm taking time to make delicious things that suit my mood. And then I get to go back and read the recipe.
                      My personal booklet!

This lunch is just a nice juicy melt- whole grain bread, butter (lots of it), brie cheese, tomatoes, peppercorn salami and jalapeno havarti. Sriracha sauce on the side for dipping. Since grilled cheese sandwiches (the way bear makes them for me when I feel homesick/blue/etc.) have become my comfort food, any idea of slightly different ingredients on a hot sandwich is quite appealing to me.

it's written all over your face

By nature you're an honest person. Everything you're thinking is written all over your face. It's like one side  of a split open dried mackerel - everything inside your head's laid out for all to see.

from a couple o' days ago

Today I ended my volunteering experience.These four hours every Monday will now be replaced by meticulous self educating. That's right. Anything I can learn outside of college in my own time.

We will start with herbs and remedies. Still gathering my information.

hello nasty

As I'm sipping on delicious coffee this  morning, I try to stay on the real side of things. The job I'm going to right now is just a job, I yearn for so much more though. And yes, I said no negative comments on this blog but I have to get it out of me now, otherwise I'll unleash at work, throw a quiche at someone. This is just a test, this is just a test to see what I'm made of. Sounds like I'm quoting Beastie Boys. Shit, hurry this coffee up and get off your computer at 4 41 in the am. Good Day!

Hey You!

Take this approach: Today I'm going to feel good about myself, my life and all that comes my way.

- That's from The Sartorialist, I think.